Hey guys, I know that in my last post I was a little all over the place, so I'm going to try and stay on task, and to going in the proper order, and stay on timeline,(if that makes sense).
It was a week before state tests, and things financially weren't working out in Arkansas. I lived with one of my best friends Taylor on and off for about two months. The electricity and gas, and water kept getting shut off. Not to mention the car wouldn't have enough gas. It was the most frustrating thing. All I wanted to do was go home and sleep in my own bed, in my own room. Eat my own food that was in my cabinets. Although it was fun living with Taylor and her family, I felt like a guest. Which is fine, its just I knew that living there was going to end. It wasn't stable.
It was a week before state tests, and things financially weren't working out in Arkansas. I lived with one of my best friends Taylor on and off for about two months. The electricity and gas, and water kept getting shut off. Not to mention the car wouldn't have enough gas. It was the most frustrating thing. All I wanted to do was go home and sleep in my own bed, in my own room. Eat my own food that was in my cabinets. Although it was fun living with Taylor and her family, I felt like a guest. Which is fine, its just I knew that living there was going to end. It wasn't stable.
A month after getting everything turned back on, and everything back to normal, my mom and Jason (the second one) had broken up... Now what I'm about to tell you is one of the hardest things I've ever had to talk about or even go through. My mom attempted to take her own life, through drug overdose. She didn't succeed, because her body just adjusted to the medication. That is just how depressed she was about this break up.
A few days later, she finally told me. Followed by that, She told me that we were moving to Portland, OR, that weekend. THAT WEEKEND!!!!!! I was distraught. I wasn't ready to just pick up and leave yet. I had tests the next week. Taylor just left to finish her last quarter in school in Hungary. My friends and I made plans for Taylor's welcome back party, and plans for my birthday. It was just one thing after another. Just that week, I had gotten Mr. Terrell's phone number, in case I needed a ride to school or something, or if I was freaking out. Right then, it seemed like a good time to use that number. I asked him to call me, via text message, and after a phone call with him, we decided to meet during lunch to go more into the details. It would have been my last lunch at school as a student. I called all of my best friends, besides Taylor, (because she was practically unreachable for the entire time she was out of the country, and she still kind of is.) and I told them what was going on. They were as distraught as I was. When I moved to Arkansas, I wasn't excited, but I was ready. I knew it was happening, and I had time to say goodbye. I only lived in Arkansas for 9 months, but with the friends I made it was like I knew them all my life. It was one of the hardest transitions I have ever had to go through.
The next day, I had some hard conversations with my teachers and with my friends. It was so emotional. That Saturday, Kenzie and Sydney came over to help pack the house up. Kenzie went home, and Sydney stayed the night. by Sunday afternoon, we were all packed up. But then... It started raining. We didn't leave until Monday night. On Monday, I went back to school, to have one final lunch with my friends, and to say my final goodbyes. As I walked out, I had to do my very best to smile, and to say goodbye.
We put the boxes on the roof, and packed up the animals and the car. We left Arkansas around 7:30pm. We drove through the night, and a day and a half later, we got to The Rocky Mountains in Colorado. We went through the park, and then decided to stay at a motel so we could get a good nights sleep. That was the most fun I had in a while. I loved the beauty of the scenery. It was awesome, and I can't wait to go again.
Here is a few photos from the trip.
Me eating the best burger with green bean fries ever!
We finally got to Portland, the following Friday. Mom took a nap, and then we got settled in. A fairly lazy day over all. On Saturday, I went with Mary, and her friend Adam, to Adam's parents house to do some archery. I was nervous, because even though I've done archery before, I wasn't sure that I was ready to be meeting three new people that day. I had fun though.But moving to Portland wasn't easy. I was really depressed for a long time. I still kind of am. But I am seeing a therapist, and that helps a lot. And that was the beginnings to my adventure in Portland.
"You are only going to be as good as the people you surround yourself with, so be brave enough to let go of those who keep weighing you down..." ~Unknown
Thanks for reading!
~Amanda
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